Had the strangest thing happen last night while I was in bed I hear what sounded like a conversation but I know I am the only person in the house I even got out of bed to be sure. I wonder if anything will happen tonight

You ever have those days when the reality of things hits you across the face sending your mood down the toilet and you feel like there is no end in sight well I am having one of those days today. So while having the house to myself would normally be nice but today sucks cause could really use a hug

ZOMBIES!!!!

I don't know what it is but I really like Zombies. They are just so interesting and fun well when they are not after you wouldn't be fun lol. I was watching some zombie movies last night and my mother's dog started barking which is not that unusual but since I was the only one at home I went to see if he was actually barking at something and I went slowly turning on lights like the light would come on and I would see a Zombie well several cause it is very rare for there to be just one Zombie most likely there are several Zombies. I have even tossed around the idea of writing a Zombie story been doing some research and this is what I come up with so far.


1. Takes only one bite to infect (transform before or after death)
2. Zombies are relentlessly driven to kill and eat
3. Must destroy the brain to kill
4. Newly dead corpses reanimated by radiation, chemicals,
viruses, sorcery or acts of God
5. Very strong
6. Impervious to pain and able to function after sustaining
extreme physical damage
7. Invulnerable to injury, except for decapitation or destruction
of the brain
8. Afraid of fire and bright lights

Some things are up for debate like fast Zombie vs the classic slow Zombie. still looking how intelligent they actually are what do they remember how to do from before the turned into a Zombie

You know I always thought you could find any song **Updated**

You know I always thought you could find any song with video on youtube but I found out tonight you can't I was looking for a song to share from the movie The Big Gay Musical called "Someone to Sing Me A Love Song" cause I like it and what it says is so true for me but try as I might it was nowhere to be found oh well

Updated 3/18/12

Found it

movies that end abruptly or to soon

I just want to kill (figuratively speaking of course) when a movie just ends for example just watched a movie called "Pooltime" through the movie you just know the main guy David and Virgil should so be together. They have several moments but always shrug it off but you know both are just afraid it is one sided. Finally David finally comes around and just when he tells Virgil they need to talk the credits roll. I in my loudest internal voice yelled "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO you bastards AHHHHHHH" why couldn't they have the conversation admit their feelings and kiss at least before they ended the movie...

Went to the first class at the episcopal church starting the learning process. It was mainly a get to know you thing little information and questions we might have. I was such a chicken shit. I didn't have the guts to ask the gay question. It was just the first class of like 8 so there still time for the issue to surface.

I dreamed about Casey last night I was standing on the out side back porch and I saw him walking down the drive way and the people around remarked I thought he had died and I was like he did at least I thought he did then he went away but I called his name and he came back and I gave him a big hug and told him how much I loved him.

I am so upset right now, because I just don't understand some people. A friend of mine was having issue with yahoo messenger she has on her phone saying it's fucked so she signs off ok now a few hours later she logs back in which I take to mean whatever was fucked was fixed or thought to been remedied in some way. So I decided to see what she was up to then I get a response from her yelling at me for IMing her and fucking up her phone again and saying you want to talk that badly I had her number.

I am just at a loss to me when someone logs into an instant messenger that means it is ok to IM them. Now if a messenger messes up what it is on then it makes sense not to login using that device.

with the mood she appears to be in I have no desire to call or talk to her at this moment after being yelled for making the assumption that by her logging in that it was ok to IM and if the phone for whatever reason signed her by mistake it doesn’t make sense for her to yell and take her anger out on me.

Church interesting location

hey found out something I find both funny and interesting at the same time about the church I plan on checking out. Sunday they have a introduction class starting where I can learn more about the Episcopal Church. I'm not sure when I will attend a service cause I want to learn more before then.

I started chapter 4 last nite this is the last planned chapter well by planned I mean what I know will happen I am sure there will be more just hasn't come to me yet

Update:
the guy emailed back still didn't answer even just about the gay issue needless to say that church wont be visited by me.

I did email another episcopal church in the area and it was like the difference between night and day he actually answered my questions talked about how they had some gay couples and even some gay and lesbian singles and that they where starting an introduction class this Sunday that I am welcome to attend and I am seriously thinking of going

You know I had been thinking of finding a welcoming church and the episcopal church seem like it be the best choice so I e-mailed one in the area and instead of answers I get why don't you come in to get your questions answered. I plan to e-mail him back and say I really need the first question about the gay issue answered first so if I did visit I would know what I am walking into. Call me crazy but I don't want to blindly walk in and get hit with the you are dammed your going straight to hell routine cause if that is the case I wouldn't show up there.

Movies that come on TV

You know it has got to where I don't like watching a movie on TV anymore especially if I have seen them on DVD or something because I start noticing where they cut parts out ether because of content or to make the movie fit in the time allotted

Had an awesome dream last night I dreamed that I knew and I was friends with Adam Lambert it was so cool not sure where it took place but my room was like down the hall from his and yea at one point he ask me to help him relieve some tension if you know what I mean I just like the thought of being friends with him and he thinking of me as his friend that if he needed anything he could ask and I would help him out. I hated to wake up because I was enjoying the dream so much.