Allow Gay Marriage in North Carolina

Hey,
I just signed the petition "Allow Gay Marriage in North Carolina" and wanted to see if you could help by adding your name.
Our goal is to reach 100,000 signatures and we need more support. You can read more and sign the petition here:
http://www.change.org/petitions/allow-gay-marriage-in-north-carolina %>

Thanks!
Todd

Being a last resort backup person

You know sometimes I think I am cursed to be the last resort backup person. You know like for times when no one else they know is available or they are at odds with everyone else for whatever reason and it is then they come sniffing around acting all nice because they want something from you. It seems that I am the last resort backup person for everyone I know even my immediate family. For example, today my older brother asked me to go with him to get some video cables and audio adapter. Then a friend of his went over to his apartment that was made for him from a garage that is just across the drive way. UPS delivered a package for me and the man was almost at the back door when my brother stopped him and accepted the package but instead of walking about 10ft to give it to me him walks back to his apartment taking the package inside then coming back outside where his friend was. I asked why he didn't bring it over he said he had company like his friend would leave or something if he took a minute maybe 2 to bring it over to me. If he had company and didn't have time to go ahead and bring it then why did he stop the man and accept the package?

Merry Christmas!!!

this one makes me laugh not that I would do it lol

The Hobbit movie

I can hardly wait for this movie to come out. I loved the book in fact it was the first book I ever read all the way through. While I enjoyed the LOTR movies I never could get into the books for some reason maybe it was the fact in the hobbit I fell in love with Bilbo because I saw myself a little bit in him and in the LOTR books he appears only briefly.

Who's your U.S.A. presidential match?

Who's your U.S.A. presidential match?

I took this ABC Quiz and it says Barack Obama is my candidate. Who is yours?

Who we are attracted to

I have been thinking about types people are attracted to. There is the obvious type that we are visually attracted to a build, how they dress, and their overall physical appearance. Then there is the type that you get to know and you are attracted to their personality who they are as a person and even though they may not be your visual type, you are attracted to them.
Sometimes if you are lucky, you find both in one person but if they are not your personality type then the relationship won't last a lifetime.

I know I am most likely not my visual type's type so will have to hope I am my personality type's type. On a side note I tend to not know when someone likes me likes me I think it is because I don't think they would so unless they are almost blunt about it I most likely won't have a clue lol

What do you think?

Watched the film "Super 8" made me think about how I have always wanted to make movies. You know Documentaries, short films, and such but I have never had the resources and stuff like a good camera, computer+software, cast, and material. I have always seemed to enjoy editing video it is kinda calming for me.

Toxic people

You know you always here about people who are in a toxic relationship usually it is a romantic relationship but it doesn't have to be. It can be acquaintances, relatives and even friends. Now the toxicness can vary. Toxic people for someone are those who use you and you let them even though you don't like it, they make everything about them and even when they are to blame they look really hard for away for it to be your fault so they can play the part of the injured party instead of you, and those who joke with you in ways they know that will upset you then hide behind the excuse "I'm just kidding around" or some variation there of.

Sometimes you have little choice but to put up with it but when you can get away some how try to keep it away or keep the level of toxicness to a minimum.

What do you want for Chistmas this year?

With the shopping started for Christmas I figured it be a great time to ask the question.
What do you want for Chistmas this year?
here is my list in no particular order

1. a significant other
2. an income
3. Snow

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!

A very GaGa Thanksgiving

100th POST!!!

I just realized that a friend of mine that reads my blog shares a name of a character in the story but it is just by chance I started writing it before I even meet them. Just thought I would clear that up in case they were wondering. The only character that share a friends name is one of my female friends.

First part of a Story I am writting **Adult Content**

This is a story I am writing and hope to get published whenever I finish it. Feel free to comment.

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Tom and Ben had decided to have a much needed getaway together before the grand opening of Ben’s restaurant next month. They decided to go to Tom’s family’s cabin in the North Carolina Mountains because it is somewhat remote so they would have some welcomed privacy. The cabin was far from cut off from the world though it had satellite TV, High-speed internet, they had cell phones, a CB radio, and a power generator. Tom’s parents had just come left from the cabin the day before and his mother made sure that the pantry and fridge were stocked up to make sure that he and Ben would have enough food to eat for a few days so that they wouldn’t need to go into town until they had got settled in at the cabin.
“Tom how much longer until we get to the cabin?” asked Ben. Tom looked over at Ben and couldn’t help but smile and think about how every trip there is always that unavoidable question of are we there yet that gets asked at least once on a trip but unfortunately it is usually asked more than once. “We should get to the cabin about 6 o’clock this evening by the time we stop for lunch and such. Lucky for us mom made sure the cabin was ready for us before she and Dad left from the cabin so we won’t need to do anything to get the place ready so we can just collapse in our bed.” Ben sat on the passenger seat of Tom’s Classic 1968 Chevy Camaro RS/ SS convertible and glared at Tom for a moment or two “Is that all you want to do in our bed is collapse? Well I never.” Tom looked at Ben wondering what was wrong but before he could say anything Ben couldn’t take it anymore and Tom noticed a twinkle in Ben’s eye and Ben cracked an ear to ear grin. Chuckling Tom pulled over and looked into Ben’s beautiful eyes “Babe I love you but collapsing is all I will probably be up for by the time we get there but I am sure you will be able to get me going in no time.” Ben looked at Tom and rubbed Tom’s crotch feeling Tom’s chubby “Looks like it won’t take long at all.” Tom’s cock started getting hard and Tom pulled Ben’s hand away “Hey now you keep that up we will never get there because I will have to be all up that cute butt of yours.” Ben smiled “climbing in to that back seat so you can pound my ass sounds good to me.” Tom leaned in and gently kissed Ben “I know me too but I want to be able to take it nice and slow enjoying every inch of you and not some quickie in the backseat of the car because we don’t want to get caught by the highway patrol like on the last trip we took.” Tom put the car in gear and started back down the road before Ben could respond. Ben leaned back in his seat an unbuttoned his shirt letting the sun shine on his well toned torso then sprayed on some sun block making it glisten in the sunshine and said “think I will close my eyes for a bit wake me when we are close to where we are stopping for lunch” Ben knew it would drive Tom crazy to see him laid back chest bare and the shine from the sun block and have to keep his hands on the wheel and eyes on the road.
After about an hour Tom was getting hungry and Ben was pretending to snore and Tom kept thinking how hot Ben looked when he was asleep even when he was faking it. Tom pulled off at the next food exit and parked the car out of anyone’s direct line of sight. Then he turned the car off trying not to disturb Ben.
Tom removed his and Ben's seat belts and gently groped Ben feeling Ben's cock start to grow. He undid Ben's belt, unbuttoned, unzipped his pants and pulled them to his knees. Tom felt Ben's hardening erection and pulled Ben's briefs down revealing Ben's hard cock and balls. Tom's cock was begging to be free and deep in Ben's ass. Tom slowly got out and came around and opened the passenger door and scooped the fake snoring Ben in his arms. He put Ben in the back seat laying Ben over the back of the seat. Tom grabbed the lube and a condom from the clove box then pulls his pants down and lubes his cock up and slowly penetrates Ben's tight ass. Just as he entered Ben looked up at him “I knew you couldn't resist me when I am asleep" Tom looked Ben dead in the eye "oh yea!" Then Tom plunged his cock all the way in till he was in to the hilt. Ben just turned "come on fuck my ass then so we can go eat some lunch” they both busted out laughing. Tom started pounding Ben good then pulled him up towards him and gave Ben a deep kiss as he made love to the man he loved and who loved him in return. The sound of a police siren ringing out caused them both to jump and started looking around, pulling their pants up and trying to see where the cop was at if they were the reason for the siren. After getting dressed and back in the front seat they still couldn’t see a cop car anywhere and then they heard the siren again. Then Ben realized the sound was coming from his cell phone causing Ben to die laughing because he forgot he changed the text message notifier to a siren as a joke to get Tom. “Ben what so dam funny we are going to get arrested” “Tom it is not the cops it is my cell I was getting a text from your mom seeing how the ride to the cabin was going” They both started laughing hard then they kissed and buckled up. Tom pulled the car out and headed to the restaurant near by it was one of those mom and pop type places where they had to play Tom and Ben just good friends instead of Tom and Ben two guys in love.
They walked in to the door and stood by the wait to be seated sign so they could be seated and get something to eat. They were both starving they hadn’t had anything to eat all day and then they really worked up an appetite in the backseat of the car. A middle aged woman approached them “Table for two boys?” Ben smiled at the hostess and asked “Could we have a booth please” she paused for a moment “sure thing hun” Ben hated when people he didn’t know called him hun but he didn’t want to cause a scene so far from their turf. Tom placed a hand on Ben’s shoulder to let him know it be ok that they would eat and be out the door and back on the road before long. The hostess led them to an empty booth near the back and handed them some menus. “Your server will be right with you to get your order” Tom looked up from the menu “thank you ma’am “ then went back to his menu “ so babe what are you going to get?” Ben looked at the menu “The ribs look good and you want to share some onion rings?” “Sure thing I think I will have the ribs to” Tom looked around “now where is our server.”
A thin young man came over to the table “Hi my name is Steven and I will be your waiter today now what would you two like to drink?” Tom replied “A tea for me and a tea with lemon for my friend.” The waiter wrote the drinks down “do you guys know what you want to order?” Ben said “yes we will both have an order of ribs and share an order of onion rings please” The waiter finished writing down the order “ok guys I will be right back with your drinks” As the waiter walked away and was out of ear shot Tom looked at Ben “Is my radar off or does he seem a little gay to you? “ Ben laughed and grabbed Tom’s hand “your gaydar seems to be working just fine because I think he may be gay too.” Just as the waiter returned Ben pulled his hand back quick hoping the waiter didn’t see it. “Ok guys here are your drinks and onion rings your ribs will be ready in a few minutes.” Then the waiter walked off Tom looked at Ben “Do you think he saw us? You think he knows we are more than just friends. I was really looking forward to a relaxing meal without the stares like we are something to gawk at or like they wish we hurry and leave.” Ben paused for a moment and looked into Tom’s eyes “I don’t think so besides I wouldn’t worry so much and as far as I am concerned we are the only two people here” Tom smiled “Aww babe that is so sweet I so want to kiss you now” Tom and Ben looked to see if anyone was watching then they leaned across the table and kissed. They quickly sat down as they spied the waiter coming with the food. The waiter set the food down on the table “You know guys I know your gay. You don’t have to try and hide it from me. Just between us so am I.” Ben looked at Tom then the waiter “How did you know? What gave us away was it when I held his hand, when you saw us kiss, or what?” The waiter got this grin on his face “well I actually knew before you two even walked in here.” Tom and Ben looked at each other puzzled then Tom looked at the waiter “How did you know before we even walked in?” The waiter laughed a bit “Well I was out back having a smoke break when I heard this noise and I investigated then I saw the two of you going at it like rabbits” Ben noticed as the waiter talked about seeing him and Tom that the waiter’s apron started to move a little like he was getting a hard on and then Ben quickly look back up as the waiter as he continued to talk “it was one of the coolest things that has ever happened to me while visiting my grandparents and helping them out here by waiting on tables and the money isn’t too bad. I am saving to go skiing at the Tall Pines Lodge in Cattle Valley, Wyoming.” Ben grabbed Tom’s hand “We had been planning to go there actually but with time restraints we decided to go to Tom’s family’s cabin instead.” The waiter look over his shoulder “That is cool. Well I better get back to work let me know if you two need anything.” Then he walked off leaving Ben and Tom to their meal. Tom looked at Ben “What the hell where you looking at?” Ben smiled and couldn’t help giggling “he was getting excited just as he started talking about seeing us it was kind of hard to ignore.” Tom laughed “well you would notice that it is like you have radar for it or something.” The waiter came over to check on them a few times and even Tom noticed the waiter still had a bulge. They flagged the waiter down to get the check. The waiter handed it to them “You pay for it up front at the register” Ben took the ticket and look at the waiter and glanced down “you might want to take a break and deal with that.” The waiter went bright red and tried to cover it. “Yea I think I will do that thanks.” Tom and Ben got in the car and as they were about to get back on the highway Tom leaned in and gave Ben a nice long kiss then pulled out onto the road.
After they had been travelling for a couple of hours Ben looked up from his book Good-Time Boys” by Carol Lynne that is 4 books in one and asked Tom “hey what do you think about that waiter Steven seeing us going at it before lunch?” Tom glance over at Ben “to be honest thinking about it gives me the creeps.” Ben looked at Tom “really? I think it is kind of hot and you know he probably was beating off thinking of us after we left.” Tom just grunted “yea he probably did.” Ben stared at Tom “Ok what bug crawled up your ass and made its home? Come on what is up?” Tom was quiet for a moment “well I just don’t like the thought of another guy seeing you naked is all." Ben shook his head "it is no big deal really besides he saw both of us not just me so I don't get it. Why does it bug you so much? You didn't get this worked up when Caz accidentally walk in on me after I had just got out of the shower and was just starting to get dressed." Tom look at Ben "that is because she screamed, you screamed, I about had a coronary and she quickly left the room face redder then this car is plus she didn't stare and get off on it." Ben leaned over and gave Tom a kiss “I understand babe I love you" Tom smiled "I love you too. We should be at the cabin in a couple hours. Mom said she left some TV dinners in the freezer so we wouldn’t have to stop for dinner or have to try and cook an entire meal after a long day of driving.” Ben looked at Tom “sounds like a plan to me” then went back to reading his book.
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Note:
Cattle Valley is a place that appears in a series of books by Carol Lynne and is of her creation.

Just voted for the VGAs

I just voted for Mass Effect 3. The mass effect series of Games are my favorite I love the story and how it gives you choices of what to say and the more times you play through the game the stronger your character gets and more dialog choices in some situations .

Today is going to be a sad day. Today would have been my dog Casey's birthday. I still miss him very much. Little things that I had to do like this time of year I would be buying bails of wheat straw to put in his dog house to help him keep warm an treating to a big can of dog food to go along with his dog food.

Even though I have joined the Episcopal church I still find Wicca and nature religions interesting and feel they my understand something that Christians don't quiet grasp or a different way of looking at things.

Confirmed in the Episcopal Church

I was confirmed in the Episcopal Church today

Happy Halloween

I need Comedy

I have come to realize how important Laughter is. Anytime I am feeling down if something can make me laugh enough I start to feel better. I guess if I ever meet a guy and fall in love he will need to be able to make me laugh by himself or know the right movie, TV show, or something that will cause me to laugh.

I totally agree with the message in this video I feel the same way. I value all my friends and care about them. I think that is why when me and a friend argue or disagree about something I or they have said or done it affects me greatly. If I unintentionally say or do something that ends up hurting a friend I hurt as well because even though when I said or did whatever upset them that was never my intention and did not think it could be taken in a negative way.

Things that puzzlle me lately

People lately confuse me how they choose to react to things that seem like the opposite of how I would they find out something they said or did upset someone and instead of contacting them to straighten it out they decide not to talk at all as if they are the wronged party because of How they found it out.

The whole thing how People say the found God or found Jesus I didn't realize they were lost.


people around me that as long as they get there way think you are the greatest but if you say no or feel differently they treat you like you are the worst person in the world.

Why do people want to own Lions, Tigers, and Bear that have no business owning them and the law where they live allows it.

What is it with these people who say that sleeping in a chili room helps them go to sleep. That is nuts for me if I wake up and I am cold I try to find a way to be warm so I can go back to sleep.

You know I am getting to the point where I just don't like to argue especially with friends to the point where I rather not talk to them at all if there is a chance that it will just be an argument.

Thank you all for listening. It may seem stupid but posting in my blog is like talking to a good friend and when I am troubled or upset blogging about it helps me get it all out and deal with it plus it has the added bonus that any of my friends that happen to read it will know what is going on with me.

Exotic Animals in Ohio killed

Ohio under pressure to pass wildlife law

In Ohio a guy let his exotic animals loose before killing himself and local law enforcement instead of making a call to get help they just shot and killed innocent animals who through no fault of there own where let out of their inclosures. Every time images of those poor animals dead it makes me so sad and cry. The Law failed these poor creatures it let someone who had no business owning them have them and when they where let out of there enclosures the law failed them again. In my opinion the law allowing the guy to own these animal and the killing these animals the worst form of animal cruelty. How could the organizations that are suppose to protect these animals let this get as far as it did.

Lady Gaga Concert

Why is it that it seems like some people like to look for something to use so they can argue. (to clarify the reason for this post does not involve anyone who has ever read this blog) A forum I go on someone basically quoted a post I made in the thread and a questionable (does not appear anywhere else in the thread) quote from another poster made in response to make it seem like they thought I was saying something that I was clearly not

Re-watch Decade of Difference Concert

Did you miss the Decade of Difference Concert last night or want to watch it again?
Click here to watch the concert in its entirety or if you want to look at parts of it check out the video selections click here

Lady GaGa just finished seeing her preform Live like that was AMAZING! I loved ever second of it

Concert with Lady GaGa live on yahoo

I am looking forward to the concert were Lady GaGa will preform along with Usher, Kenny Chesney, The Edge and Bono, K'naan, Juanes Decade of Difference Concert 10pm EST

This song been on my mind today thinking about when we see ourselves in a mirror put in front of us by ourselves or others that if we don't like what we see then we need to make a change.



Then after listening to the song I think if we are to make the world a better place we need to start with ourselves and work our way outward.

You ever become afraid to say anything because everything you say or do is wrong and you don't want lose anyone? See that is my biggest fear is people leaving and I end up truly alone so when ... Better stop now
Before I say to much I will say this writing things here helps me and let's friends know what I am thinking about or what is going on in my head (scary I know) and maybe even understand me a little. Anywho thanks for listening I'm going to attempt sleep know been difficult was only able to last night cause mom had a half an ambian so took that plus over the counter cause damit all I needed sleep so tonight just got the over the counter hope sleep happens tonight

"Scare Tactics" makes me laugh

Is it strange to laugh at scare tactics even after it goes off? I don't know why it makes me smile and giggle a little. At least it does tonight.

who inventewd the little things

I have been wondering who invented the little things that make up today's technology. For Example:
Who invented the wire? How they decide the material to use? When they decide warping the wire to solve the issues bare wires cause?
With the phone who came up with system of the dial and buttons to dial numbers instead of having to go through an operator.

I probably could keep going it just makes you think who invented the things that inventors use to event the thing we use today.

My mother just asked me to change one of my pillows for a long pillow so she could take one for my great aunt to use to help keep her bad leg immobilized I offered the bottom pillow but she didn't like it and took the top pillow that I like and rest my head on every night and it has left me feeling depressed. I know it is just a pillow but it seems so typical for me that what I am willing to give is not good enough and they take what I really did not want to give away and I was powerless to prevent it.

this is one of my favorite songs

I still miss my dog Casey I think about him almost every day. They had a blessing of the animals service Sunday afternoon I thought about going but it just a reminder he is not here.

Church update as requested

Things are going really well I think the people are really nice there and I think it is a good place for me. I just have a good feeling about it.

I love forests or woods. I like looking into them they just seem magical for some reason. It is like you expect to seem some animal or creature to appear just going about its day.

The Bible, Christianity, & Homosexuality

I feel like the information in this study is important whether you gay, straight, christian or bible believer because at the very least you will know when The Haters are spewing their venom you will know they have no clue what they are talking about and they wont be able to use the Bible to hurt you.

The Bible, Christianity, & Homosexuality
By the Rev. Justin R. Cannon

There are many commendable books on the Bible and homosexuality which
span anywhere from a hundred to several hundred pages in length. For the curious, such books can sometimes be inaccessible or more than they
really want to read. The Bible, Christianity, & Homosexuality is a concise yet profound analysis of the Bible verses often misused to
condemn gay and lesbian Christians. This study was written to be
accessible to all, indeed, something family members and friends of gay
and lesbian Christians might actually take the time to read. The
Los Angeles Times describes this work as "...an illuminating...analysis
that argues the Bible doesn't condemn faithful gay relationships."
(McGough, 7/18/05). 

The study can be found at
http://www.truthsetsfree.net/
http://inclusiveorthodoxy.yolasite.com/homosexuality.php

If you have netflix you can see a unrelated to the above study but with similar information
"Fish Out of Water"(2009)

Spurred by director Ky Dickens's own coming-out story, this playfully animated documentary confronts the slippery topic of homosexuality head on, homing in on Bible verses oft-cited as condemnatory and opening them to fresh interpretation. A cartoon narrator guides a broad-minded exploration of the thorny issue as a range of individuals in red states and blue, from theologians to barbershop denizens, weigh in with their experiences and beliefs.
http://www.netflix.com/Movie/Fish-Out-of-Water/70131775

I know make-up on guys can be frowned upon in so circles. Now by make-up on guys I mean like foundation to help even out skin-tone, concealer and stuff around the eyes to make the eyes look brighter more rested. For the issue is having a safe way to find out what the correct shade that will match my skin-tone.

Had the strangest thing happen last night while I was in bed I hear what sounded like a conversation but I know I am the only person in the house I even got out of bed to be sure. I wonder if anything will happen tonight

You ever have those days when the reality of things hits you across the face sending your mood down the toilet and you feel like there is no end in sight well I am having one of those days today. So while having the house to myself would normally be nice but today sucks cause could really use a hug

ZOMBIES!!!!

I don't know what it is but I really like Zombies. They are just so interesting and fun well when they are not after you wouldn't be fun lol. I was watching some zombie movies last night and my mother's dog started barking which is not that unusual but since I was the only one at home I went to see if he was actually barking at something and I went slowly turning on lights like the light would come on and I would see a Zombie well several cause it is very rare for there to be just one Zombie most likely there are several Zombies. I have even tossed around the idea of writing a Zombie story been doing some research and this is what I come up with so far.


1. Takes only one bite to infect (transform before or after death)
2. Zombies are relentlessly driven to kill and eat
3. Must destroy the brain to kill
4. Newly dead corpses reanimated by radiation, chemicals,
viruses, sorcery or acts of God
5. Very strong
6. Impervious to pain and able to function after sustaining
extreme physical damage
7. Invulnerable to injury, except for decapitation or destruction
of the brain
8. Afraid of fire and bright lights

Some things are up for debate like fast Zombie vs the classic slow Zombie. still looking how intelligent they actually are what do they remember how to do from before the turned into a Zombie

You know I always thought you could find any song **Updated**

You know I always thought you could find any song with video on youtube but I found out tonight you can't I was looking for a song to share from the movie The Big Gay Musical called "Someone to Sing Me A Love Song" cause I like it and what it says is so true for me but try as I might it was nowhere to be found oh well

Updated 3/18/12

Found it

movies that end abruptly or to soon

I just want to kill (figuratively speaking of course) when a movie just ends for example just watched a movie called "Pooltime" through the movie you just know the main guy David and Virgil should so be together. They have several moments but always shrug it off but you know both are just afraid it is one sided. Finally David finally comes around and just when he tells Virgil they need to talk the credits roll. I in my loudest internal voice yelled "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO you bastards AHHHHHHH" why couldn't they have the conversation admit their feelings and kiss at least before they ended the movie...

Went to the first class at the episcopal church starting the learning process. It was mainly a get to know you thing little information and questions we might have. I was such a chicken shit. I didn't have the guts to ask the gay question. It was just the first class of like 8 so there still time for the issue to surface.

I dreamed about Casey last night I was standing on the out side back porch and I saw him walking down the drive way and the people around remarked I thought he had died and I was like he did at least I thought he did then he went away but I called his name and he came back and I gave him a big hug and told him how much I loved him.

I am so upset right now, because I just don't understand some people. A friend of mine was having issue with yahoo messenger she has on her phone saying it's fucked so she signs off ok now a few hours later she logs back in which I take to mean whatever was fucked was fixed or thought to been remedied in some way. So I decided to see what she was up to then I get a response from her yelling at me for IMing her and fucking up her phone again and saying you want to talk that badly I had her number.

I am just at a loss to me when someone logs into an instant messenger that means it is ok to IM them. Now if a messenger messes up what it is on then it makes sense not to login using that device.

with the mood she appears to be in I have no desire to call or talk to her at this moment after being yelled for making the assumption that by her logging in that it was ok to IM and if the phone for whatever reason signed her by mistake it doesn’t make sense for her to yell and take her anger out on me.