I have been thinking lately about how it seems like a majority of people I know and do something with always do what they want to do and not even ask what I might like to do. The very few that do ask what I want to do are not really asking they don't know what they want to do so they want me to come up with things to do then they decide if they want to do them or not. It seem like the only way I can do what I want to do and be myself is to just be by myself but then I feel alone and wish I had someone maybe even a special someone to share and do things with that we both enjoy and I be myself and they be themselves at the same time.

Had a really good dream last nite in the dream I got proposed to. The guy I was with we were celebrating our anniversary and he for whatever reason was getting me a ring for my anniversary gift asking which I liked I guess to be sure I would like it any way when he was about to give it to me friends gathered around us and he asked me to marry him and of course I said yes and we kissed. Then I realize I knew the guy years ago back in junior high was so weird but good.

In responce to comment from yesterday's post

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Anonymous said...

Hey Todd ,
I have watched some of seaquest , have you ever watched ocean girl , similar type story but there was this organization under the sea in where they were trying to communicate with whales.

I believe if the air becomes really bad to breath we will have to go to a plan b and at that time we might have to live in the ocean.

would be neat though , of coarse after a long time you would want to be able to see the sun and the moon and the stars and have the wind blow through the trees , i would miss alot of that so I guess that would be a good question for your next blog , if we were to live under the sea what would you miss that you have now and does not have to be materialistic things ?
Thomas
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What would I miss if I lived under the sea? Real fresh air, the smell when it rains and the smell right after the rain stops, and seeing animals like birds, squirrels, and rabbits going about their day.

What would you miss?

Just notice something about my posts

I just noticed something about when I post. They sometime read like I am talking fast or like my mind is all over the place or something because I don't talk like that well at least I don't think I do lol.

You know I was all set to post via the website but just didn't feel right. I kept wanting to grab my phone and send the post via e-mail I can't explain it I just find it easier somehow.
Anywho been watching some episodes of a show called "Seasquest DSV" it reminds me how cool it would be to live under the ocean. I have always found the idea fascinating. I think someday it will happen. People say someday we will live on the moon and in outer space but I the world oceans will come first.

Ever have one of those nights where you are trying to sleep and your mind has other ideas?  Thinking about stuff, you would prefer not to think about. Well I am having one of those nights tonight. It is nights like this make me hate being single because it is a night like this I really could use a cuddle with someone who say things like it’s ok and I cuddle up to them and fall fast asleep.

You know what I cannot stand are these supposed free dating sites that are not really free. They let you create a profile, search, and even look at profiles but when you go to contact someone then you find this supposed free dating site is not free at all but requires you to pay a monthly fee to be able to actually connect with anyone. That just pisses me off a little bit.

I went to the library today. It always seems amazing how you go, you look for books, and time just flies by so quickly. Today for example, I had started looking and before I knew it an hour has past but feels like it had been only 5 or 10 minutes.
I got started on the first part of the second chapter. I hope the first chapter doesn't eat it cause it could fit the end of chapter one easy but for now it is the beginning of chapter two.
May need to make a list of subjects that each day I write about them but then again what would be good to put on the list.

You know the one thing about doing a blog is you really don't know if anyone actually reads your blog or even cares if you blog or not. Watching Legion while I work on my story maybe one of these days I will actually finish it and maybe even get it published one of these days but only have the first chapter done had my friend Angie read it she says it was good and can hardly wait to read and find out what happens to the two guys in the story. Even though I don't think, she was saying it to be nice but part of me still wonders if others might actually want to read it.

First entry

It is thundering and lightening outside right now. I am sitting here watching the show Little Men and trying to think how to start the second chapter of the story I am trying to write. I am going to try and write as often as I can think of something to write about and remember to post lol.

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