Things that been going through my mind lately

You know there have been things that have been recurring thoughts in my mind.

 I have enjoyed doing this blog but you don’t know if anyone really reads it unlike something like YouTube that shows views and stuff that so you know that someone has seen it.

I seem cursed with the stand on the outside looking in syndrome.  What I mean is that even among people I like and am friends with there are times I feel on the outside or left out.  It is not their fault and I do not think it is on purpose it just happens.  I at times envy how close some people are when they talk about how the always do this or that do together and I just think why I can’t have someone who is like that with me, but I know not much happens to me and I am probably boring to talk with.  I guess I long for someone who feels close enough that they can tell me anything things they wouldn’t tell everyone and trust that I won’t go blabbing.  

Privet messaging can be a blessing and a curse.  It is a blessing in that you can talk to someone without it in main chat. It can be a curse when you feel that people are talking in PM and you wonder what are they talking about, why can’t it be in main chat, and what do they not want me to hear or be a part of.

Anywho these are just a few things going through my brain.